Adventures in Freelance Insanity
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Have a Great Weekend One and All!
It takes me longer to get pics from J and my dad now that they are digital. This is because J has about as much free time as me, and downloading pics from his cam takes time.
From my annoying dad, i feel that his switch to digital is a direct betrayal. He is a professional photographer (as both a businessman and an aritst) and his idea of "I was just shooting this pic" is everyone else's idea of The Perfect Picture.
Used to be, he would take as many shots as he needed. In the olden days he developed his own pics in his darkroom. He started using the local developers. He was using Photoshop (or it's predecessor) before anyone even heard of Microsoft. In any of these days, pictures he took came to me within two days.
He made the switch to digital and things have never been the same.
He still takes awesome pics but now I hve to corner him to get copies of my favorites only after I track them down in the cave he calls his office. He cant email them because the resolution of his pics are too much for easy emailing so he has to burn them to a disk which I also have to pick up, review, and pick out my favorites.
I object to all this new-fangled technology making his job easier and mine harder.
Well, you say, I could take my own pics and solve the problem. However, my whole life every gathering of one or more persons was accompanied by the subtle click of my dad's camera. I never had a need to record anything - it was always recorded bigger and much better than I could've anyway.
And we wont even talk about the trees that died the first few years of mine (the first child) or my son's (the first grandchild) life so that every breath we took was recorded.
Lest you think I jest I can locate in my parents house over eights boxes of slides (remember them?) of the first year of my life. Eight boxes.
All this to introduce the few paltry pictures Ive managed to squeeze out of J & my dad.
They are over a month old at this point but we do what we can - - - -
The Face, after his Hemi-Fontan in January but before his numo-thorax
The Face 2 weeks later. I have to say it again - he amazes me every day
and, My Boys
11:42 a.m. - 2006-03-03
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Having a Shitty Ass Week
Okay, it's time to get a new job. Simple fact that for me, in most jobs, a year is about my limit. After that I become less tractable, less understanding, less tolerant.
Before I understood myself and my need to change jobs I would change jobs by either 1) finally standing up to various inequities going on or 2) doing such a crappy job that someone spoke to me about it.
In this case, I have absolutly had it with a certain manager. I bend over backwards to give people the benefit of the doubt. I can accept the fact that you single me out, try to humiliate me and treat me like crap to the very limit of your ability if the reason you do so is because you dont like me or you're just an asshole.
But when you make it totally clear that the only reason you pick on me is because Im a woman - then fuck you.
What I find most fascinating about people at work is that they are under the impression that if they say bad/stupid things about me J will not tell me.
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At the risk of pissing off an even greater number of people than I apparently already have this week, I have to say that I find the signatures in my support group creepy.
I dont know how it started or why but an example of how people sign their emails. This is what my sig would like if I did it... [explanations in block quotes]
- That Girl [actualy my real name], mom to NAME{actually Face's real name], the Face, 7 months, DORV, VSD, MA, AA, TGA, COARC, HLHS, stroke, reflux, constipation [his diagnoses], Norwood performed 7/12/05 by the great NAME [Dr. Name], respitory arrest 10/29/05 from BT shunt closing, cardiac cath, angioplastry, 2 stents inserted 10/30/05 by the great NAME [Dr Name], cardiac cath #2 7/11/06, Hemi-Fontan 7/12/06 by the great NAME [dr name], stroke 7/12/06 and Terror 14 HH [means heart healthy], partner to J.
Kind of a legnthy signature. It creeps me because there's only two explanations for it (that I can think of) 1. In case someone wants to know what your kid specifically has or has been through.But everyone involved can look up any of the info on the support group website at any time by clicking on the link WITHIN EACH EMAIL.
The second, and more likely, and very creepy explanation is a sort of one-upmanship.
I sign my emails like this...
-That Girl
If anyone can think of a non-creepy explanation lemme know. I hesitate to ask any of the members because I already feel like the odd woman out in many cases.
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Seriously, I have to get a new job. There's this new guy I have to IM with who has already asked me what my sign is, if I will exchange "pics" with him, told me he's heard Im "hot", and acts as if his interest is some sort of compliment. Here's and IM from today with names changed:
TrafficAss: hey, is the 95 accident in your camera?
thatgirl: yes
TrafficAss: can we see please??????
thatgirl: go look
TrafficAss: im looking at it
thatgirl: so what is it you want?
TrafficAss: a shot of the accident in the inner drive left lane
TrafficAss: and a little lovin
thatgirl: 95 acc all lanes open
thatgirl: it was in BOTH lanes
thatgirl: and too bad on the lovin
TrafficAss: damn That Girl your grumpy
thatgirl: yes
TrafficAss: i guess its that time of month
thatgirl: seriously, dont talk to me
In case youre thinking there was previous conversation which made him declare me grumpy, you would be wrong. My "too bad" instead of "let me help" classifies me as grumpy - and I didnt even point out (in case the post doesnt make it obvious) that he was already looking in the camera he wanted in the first place, he just didnt see the accident.
ASSHOOOOOOOOOOLE!
I joked with a female co-worker that he was the kind of guy that thought he was doing you the ultimate favor by letting you ride in his Iroc and we dissed on him for a while. It doesnt make him less of an ass but it made me feel a little better.
When Im letting guys like this get to me its TIME FOR A NEW JOB!!
Did I say that already?
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All y'all have a good day, I hope asshats get out of your way and the sun shines for you today!
9:56 a.m. - 2006-03-01
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Drunk Olympic Blogging
Warning: The following Post Contains Snark. If you are allergic to snark, please look away.
K, So the Winter Olympics are almost over. Here's my confession: Im an Olympics addict. I always have been. What's worse, I do it alone and almost no one who knows me knows this about me.
Not only do I watch every event but frequently cry at the finishes, no matter who has won. I can't watch the ceramonies cause then my swollen eyes would make people talk.
This is the first time I have Tivo'd them, and I have to say - if there was a way to sexually pleasure my Tivo I would do it.
Every night I sit, glued to the tv watching people Ive never heard of win medals in a country far away. On Thursday, Friday, and tonight I mixed the marguesritas, broke out the slasa and chips and REALLY enjoyed the Olympics. Especially knowing I can run to the bathroom without missing a good part.
So here's my Olympic thoughts:
Russia. Your seriously ugly uniforms hurt my eyes. Who designed them? I say, in the spirit of honoring the past, impale the head of the designer in St Peter's Square. Red and white fake-paisly? Really?
Alpine Ski jumping. The origins of the sport are easy and obvious to discern. Drunk. College. Men.
Really, who else says to themselves "Self, I have a great idea! Lets ski off a cliff 5 stories up in the air, land on our feet and ski away. Maybe while we're in the air we can do somersaults or something! Wouldnt that ROCK!"
Drunk college dudes, good one!
Female alpine skiing. I dont know if this has anything to do with them being female or not but many of the contestants seemed to have had knee reconstructions. As have I.
Now, Im no doctor, but Im pretty sure landing on a bad knee from five stories up cannot be good for your knee. Im just saying.
Truth is, I had to look away when they landed because I found myself gasping and wincing like guys do when another guy takes a groin-hit.
I have to agree with Bill Maher - skate-dancing is not a sport. Was I the only one creeped out by tuxedo-guy skatedancing to "My Way?"
What was up with one of the male skating commenter? Asshat. They would be like "Good form out there, she seems to be trying very hard." and he would be like "I have to disagree. This GIRL sucks ass and doesnt deserve to be here." For almost every skater.
It's people like this I feel like giving a reality check. Hello!! On your best day you are not half the athlete that any of these WOMEN are.
I have issues with commentors anyway. Namely that they began because we had no tv and needed a running commentary. We have tv. You can shut up now. But this guy - this boy needs to go home or STFU.
This Ohno guy. Enough already. Every time he comes on there's like a 1/2 history review. And he's in a lot of races. We get it. We know every damn thing about him.
I totally cheer for every American to win (Im partisan like that) but frankly, ohno looks like a punk. (Its the face-Brazilon that does it for me)Despite all the press which acts as if him deciding to actually train for the Olympics is some huge decision and he is gracing us with his presence. All Hail Ohno!
What really pissed me off is in one of the races, they did a 1/2 hour special on Ohno, then the race. Two seconds before the race they are like "Rusty Smith is also in this race." Thats IT.
THEN, and Im not exaggerating, they go... "Rusty Smith just set the Olympic Record in this Event. Ohno's getting ready in the back..."
Thats it. Randy sets the record and gets TWO lines. Spare him three. or maybe four.
Curling is deadly boring no matter how fast in foreward you watch it.
The new mens 8000 km biathalon. BORING! I had such high hopes for Jay tho!
I like Bode Miller because his message is "Come Out. Even if you arnt the Best (which he was)." He tried to inspire kids to play sports even if they werent world-competetors or even great. I respect that.
I also think he was smoking a little ganja before the last race cause when he didnt medal (for the fifth time this Olympics) I THINK he was trying to say "I came out here to participate and represent. I didnt win. Thats what happens sometimes." What he ACTUALLY said was some rambling shit about not coming to the Olympics to win, but to "persue his path in the now".
Dude. Tell your agent to earn their money and talk FOR you when you've been smoking.
I have to admit (another deep dark secret) that in a rare show (I think it unsportspersonlike) I have rooted for the Korean man speed skater to lose. In case he reads this I wont say which one.
The bobsled commentaters should've learned by the second week yet they keep making asses out of themselves by going "grave-voice" over a flaw which will matter - only to have whatever team theyre talking about win big. Know what your talking about or shut up. If you cant do that, talk about strategy.
One last note. The fact that Hummer is a sponsor of the Olympics cracks me up. Truth in advertising should compel their tagline to read "Destroying the Earth, one gallon at a time."
This has been this year's version of Drunk Olympic Blogging, brought to you buy Jose Cuervo and That Girl.
***cues the Olympic theme***
1:35 a.m. - 2006-02-26
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Random Bitching & Hapiness
Baby is 7 months old! Ive been waiting for a picture of him to post the sappy letter I wrote him. In the meantime...
ONE
There was a discussion on Baby Blogging about whether thank you notes are still necessary. And a commentor replied "If I, as the stay-at-home mom of a toddler, can find the time, anyone can."
Um, can I have her life? Can anyone say "spoiled and doesnt even know it?"
I hope for her sake she doesnt get pregnant cause if she thinks she's busy now...
TWO
My sister has, for the first time ever, gone online. I actually got an email from her. I was gonna say I should watch for snow then I realized - we just had a blizzard.
I sent her this address for the millionth time, but I dont know if she's reading it. If she is - hey, chika, I adore you!!
THREE
J is in the thick of it - storyboarding is complete and shooting commences next week. He is getting to the point (common in every shoot) where he starts bitching about all the things that are going wrong and how horrible the movie is going to turn out.
Im not sure if he realizes he does this every time.
It's great for him, but not having him around makes my life that much more complicated. Only increased by...
FOUR
I am a dumbass who shoveled and threw her back out. I threw my back out because Im fat and extremely out of shape.
I know, I know, I had a baby, but even though I couldnt excercise and had a miserable pregnancy I only gained a post-pregnancy 40 pounds. Im now 90 pounds past what I was a short year ago.
In December of 2004 I was smoking 4 packs a day but I also ran 4 miles a day (in 60 minutes mind you). Occaisionally (once a week) I added on some weights and once in a while some swimming.
Now I can barely get up the stairs. True, I dont smoke anymore, but Im probably more unhelathy than Ive ever been right now.
That will absolutly have to change and I swear, as soon as my back gets better it's an-excerciszing-we-will-go.
Getting old bites ass. So does pregnancy weight. So does quitting smoking.
Just saying - kids, dont try it at home.
FIVE
Im very political even tho I rarely write anything political on this blog. Even though I always vote and do what I can, I am getting scared.
It feels like the Dark Ages are coming back.
I try to remain calm and tell myself that it's just the pendulum swinging but more and more I fear that this IS the end times and reasonable people are not taking up arms because we really dont believe Evil can win.
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SIX
My son not only won all but one of his wrestling matches this year (his first), he also made the honor roll. I am so proud, and yes, Im taking credit too.
Those are my meanderings for today - I hope y'all are feeling good about your life or on the way there.
7:45 p.m. - 2006-02-15
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